I recently shared my anonymous blog with everyone I know and attached my name to it. This was a big and risky step for me. I fear being publicly known as schizoaffective (let’s just say Read more…
The Dragon is a seemingly living thing that is inside of me and is coiled into every part of my being. It is evil. It is insidious. It knows every chink in my thick armor Read more…
Whenever someone asks me “How long have you suffered with depression?” I never know what to say. I think it was always there, lying dormant, waiting for me to discover it. Sometimes I would think Read more…
Thank God. That’s how I felt when my new psychiatrist diagnosed me as having Bipolar II. I’m so relieved. I imagine many people who’ve received such a diagnosis understand how I felt that day. And Read more…
“Everything is blurry, except this dull ache inside of me that doesn’t seem to disappear.” Some people say “when you’ve finally found your purpose in life, that’s when you’ll die.” I don’t think so. Some Read more…
You hear it all the time. “Oh, that’s giving me anxiety,” somebody types online in response to a stupid Facebook video. But real anxiety, palpable anxiety is unbearable. Your heart is constantly racing, like a Read more…
It’s July 2016, and it’s my 25th birthday. I am walking home with my girlfriend up the steep incline to my apartment in San Francisco. All I want to do for my birthday is see Read more…
The loss of innocence; I thought I understood it. As a licensed marriage and family therapist, it is something I have seen over and over again. From substance abuse and overdoses, car accidents resulting in Read more…
It’s been ten years since Nick took his life, but I still think about him every day. When I think about Nick, I try to remember the good. The summer afternoons at swimming holes, the Read more…
I am bipolar and my wife is not. This is more narrative than advice but it might give you an idea of what it takes. She is the only person in my life who lives Read more…