I recently shared my anonymous blog with everyone I know and attached my name to it. This was a big and risky step for me. I fear being publicly known as schizoaffective (let’s just say Read more…
The Dragon is a seemingly living thing that is inside of me and is coiled into every part of my being. It is evil. It is insidious. It knows every chink in my thick armor Read more…
Whenever someone asks me “How long have you suffered with depression?” I never know what to say. I think it was always there, lying dormant, waiting for me to discover it. Sometimes I would think Read more…
It’s been ten years since Nick took his life, but I still think about him every day. When I think about Nick, I try to remember the good. The summer afternoons at swimming holes, the Read more…
I am bipolar and my wife is not. This is more narrative than advice but it might give you an idea of what it takes. She is the only person in my life who lives Read more…
In May of 2017, at 26 years old I awoke from an emergency surgery with a cancer diagnosis, a colostomy, and the immediate knowledge that my life had just irreversibly changed. One year ago today, Read more…
Right after becoming a Navy SEAL I had my first manic episode. All that training on mental toughness and still I wasn’t prepared for the agony of losing my mind. At the time of my Read more…
What’s the problem? I’ve been asking myself that a lot lately. What’s the problem in the world today? Why are things going so seemingly to shit? Why does it feel scary? Why do we feel Read more…
July 11, 2011, the night that Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows Part 2 releases. I am sitting in the middle seat, fourth row from the back when it happens. My breathing becomes shallow and Read more…
Looking up from the sink, cold water dripping from my face, I sought an answer to the question that had been gnawing at my psyche like a vulture over a fresh carcass: What is wrong Read more…